In danger

We’re in danger on two fronts, X and I agree. Of going too far inside but also of being pulled too far outside. Inside where we fall into dead time, outside where we’re exposed as liars, cowards, perverts, overexposed… in a bleached light… We face the same danger on both fronts, we agree, we have to walk a narrow line so we don’t lose ourselves and cease to separate inside from out. But there are good ways to lose yourself too, aren’t there, I ask, necessary ways? They don’t care how we do it, says X, it’s all the same to them. But aren’t there ways even they haven’t discovered, that they can’t get to? I ask. It’s possible, he says.